Post by Rick Redner on Mar 6, 2013 10:13:31 GMT -5
Weeks prior to knowing I had a lump on my prostate, I'd been complaining of bone pain. Once I received my biopsy results and I found out I prostate cancer, I was terrified that prostate cancer had already spread into my bones. I was so anxious, I slept poorly for days.
A bible verse came to me which seemed to mock me rather than comfort me.
It was from Phil 4:6
Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; 7 and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.
What do you do when something in God's word doesn't come true in your life?
One path th take to think that God is a liar and to move further away from Him during and after the crisis of prostate cancer.
The Bible says this in Num 23:19
God is not a man, that He should lie,
I preferred to think the promise was still available, but I wasn't ready or perhaps mature enough in my faith to find that peace.
Eventually I made peace the idea that prostate cancer could be the way God would call me home, but I never liked the idea, looked forward to dying of prostate cancer, or lost my desire to live another decade or two.
There's nothing wrong with feeling anxious or terrified about having prostate cancer, or not wanting to die. To think faith would remove those feelings and thoughts is not, in my opinion, realistic thinking.
A bible verse came to me which seemed to mock me rather than comfort me.
It was from Phil 4:6
Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; 7 and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.
What do you do when something in God's word doesn't come true in your life?
One path th take to think that God is a liar and to move further away from Him during and after the crisis of prostate cancer.
The Bible says this in Num 23:19
God is not a man, that He should lie,
I preferred to think the promise was still available, but I wasn't ready or perhaps mature enough in my faith to find that peace.
Eventually I made peace the idea that prostate cancer could be the way God would call me home, but I never liked the idea, looked forward to dying of prostate cancer, or lost my desire to live another decade or two.
There's nothing wrong with feeling anxious or terrified about having prostate cancer, or not wanting to die. To think faith would remove those feelings and thoughts is not, in my opinion, realistic thinking.